I graduate on June 7th.
I graduate on June 7th.
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Today we had our examen general so we're officially done with school!! Apparently everybody passed except Franscesco. But we're still a lot of grads, 105!!
We've been practising for the mass, which is on Monday. It's hot up onstage but sometimes a cool breeze blows our way. I sit next to Stephanie and Angie. I'm okay with that, they're nice. When we enter, April is right behind me, and when we leave, April and I pair up and exit together!
I'm a bit upset though.
I didn't win Valedictorian, or silver or bronze. I'm down to the 6th place. I cried about that already so I'm cool about it. I know I'm smart, I'm just not perfect. And neither is Enry.
What I'm upset about is that I don't have any participation in the whole thing. I expressed to Ms. Sarah that I wanted to read una lectura en la misa, but no, they chose Anna, who I thought they stopped liking after she said she didn't want to participate in the graduation ceremony. So yeah, I would've loved reading in the mass, but anyways. I try not to think about how I didn't win and don't get to read.
So, after the TES exam, which was really an interview about my experience (I told Mr. Carlos the story of Don Luis, who I hope is okay, and Rosibel), we had time to kill. A priest came to Confesar, and I'm glad that most of the Catholic seniors se confesaron, but I didn't. Confession is an aspect of Catholicism that I'm not comfortable with completely. It's hard for me for some reason. I cry everytime. Don't know why. Are You mad because I don't like to Confess, God? Please don't be. I'm sorry.
I told my parents and they started about how I should always take the opportunity and that it's important etc. They don't understand that it makes me uncomfortable.
But I guess that's the point, right? I have to be embarrassed of my sins? I wanna talk to You, God, no one else.
What I wanted to talk about is that Nicolle, Fernando, Benjamin, Andrea and I had our confession time. I think it was my idea to play with the foil ball and whoever dropped it had to say a truth.
Benja dropped it first. He said he felt like a fool for the way he lost Honor Society. Then I can't remember the order so I'm just gonna list what each said.
Andrea: pretty much nothing deep, just that she didn't think she'd win science fair and something else I can't remember.
Fernando: that he's sorry he couldn't get to know us better; that he didn't like me either (see 1.) because I was selfish about helping others in school and that he's seen my change too (everyone claimed it).
Benjamin: que agarró un cariño conmigo (both our eyes watered); that he liked Ms. Sarah as a person but disliked some of her attitudes; that he had a crush on Nasly for awhile back.
Nicolle: that she would like to win a medal; that she once asked me "¿te caigo mal?" and I said that I used to but that her religion changed her and that it made her realize she was doing things right (I could only think, too bad it's JW).
Me:
1. that I really thought, like really thought, since 9th grade, that I would win valedictorian (then everyone told me they thought so too);
2. that I had a crush on Ronald but not anymore;
3. that until the beginning of senior year when Fernando stopped being friends with Anna, Jenyffer and Bianca, I didn't like him;
4. that until the creation of the bakery club in 9th grade, I had periods of dislike/like of Nicolle;
5. that I'd be writing them each a letter (Nicolle is too).
I think I left some things out that I can't remember but I guess these is what mattered most to me. I realize that I do have friends, despite what Yeye or Mom might say. I hope we do it again with the complete group. I felt connected to them, like we were deeper than the things we too oftentimes talk about. I hope that now that we will stop seeing each other almost daily, they'll actually text me. Maybe I should text them first.
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Today we had our examen general so we're officially done with school!! Apparently everybody passed except Franscesco. But we're still a lot of grads, 105!!
We've been practising for the mass, which is on Monday. It's hot up onstage but sometimes a cool breeze blows our way. I sit next to Stephanie and Angie. I'm okay with that, they're nice. When we enter, April is right behind me, and when we leave, April and I pair up and exit together!
I'm a bit upset though.
I didn't win Valedictorian, or silver or bronze. I'm down to the 6th place. I cried about that already so I'm cool about it. I know I'm smart, I'm just not perfect. And neither is Enry.
What I'm upset about is that I don't have any participation in the whole thing. I expressed to Ms. Sarah that I wanted to read una lectura en la misa, but no, they chose Anna, who I thought they stopped liking after she said she didn't want to participate in the graduation ceremony. So yeah, I would've loved reading in the mass, but anyways. I try not to think about how I didn't win and don't get to read.
So, after the TES exam, which was really an interview about my experience (I told Mr. Carlos the story of Don Luis, who I hope is okay, and Rosibel), we had time to kill. A priest came to Confesar, and I'm glad that most of the Catholic seniors se confesaron, but I didn't. Confession is an aspect of Catholicism that I'm not comfortable with completely. It's hard for me for some reason. I cry everytime. Don't know why. Are You mad because I don't like to Confess, God? Please don't be. I'm sorry.
I told my parents and they started about how I should always take the opportunity and that it's important etc. They don't understand that it makes me uncomfortable.
But I guess that's the point, right? I have to be embarrassed of my sins? I wanna talk to You, God, no one else.
What I wanted to talk about is that Nicolle, Fernando, Benjamin, Andrea and I had our confession time. I think it was my idea to play with the foil ball and whoever dropped it had to say a truth.
Benja dropped it first. He said he felt like a fool for the way he lost Honor Society. Then I can't remember the order so I'm just gonna list what each said.
Andrea: pretty much nothing deep, just that she didn't think she'd win science fair and something else I can't remember.
Fernando: that he's sorry he couldn't get to know us better; that he didn't like me either (see 1.) because I was selfish about helping others in school and that he's seen my change too (everyone claimed it).
Benjamin: que agarró un cariño conmigo (both our eyes watered); that he liked Ms. Sarah as a person but disliked some of her attitudes; that he had a crush on Nasly for awhile back.
Nicolle: that she would like to win a medal; that she once asked me "¿te caigo mal?" and I said that I used to but that her religion changed her and that it made her realize she was doing things right (I could only think, too bad it's JW).
Me:
1. that I really thought, like really thought, since 9th grade, that I would win valedictorian (then everyone told me they thought so too);
2. that I had a crush on Ronald but not anymore;
3. that until the beginning of senior year when Fernando stopped being friends with Anna, Jenyffer and Bianca, I didn't like him;
4. that until the creation of the bakery club in 9th grade, I had periods of dislike/like of Nicolle;
5. that I'd be writing them each a letter (Nicolle is too).
I think I left some things out that I can't remember but I guess these is what mattered most to me. I realize that I do have friends, despite what Yeye or Mom might say. I hope we do it again with the complete group. I felt connected to them, like we were deeper than the things we too oftentimes talk about. I hope that now that we will stop seeing each other almost daily, they'll actually text me. Maybe I should text them first.