So it's July already.

So it's July already. I'm starting college in a few days, perhaps among a handful who are doing the same. I'm in Tegus, though. Up until last night, I had been having a nice time. But then this morning my old self caught up with me. I'm trying not to be grumpy with Aunt and Grandma, they don't deserve it. Luis and Denis do. They still answer too loudly to simple questions, argue when their opinions weren't asked, can't do anything but shit, literally. At least Luis seems to enjoy his major now. I mean, they have their nice side, but their nice side sometimes dwells too long on annoying. But the one receiving most of the blows is Grandma. Aunt said how it'd be different if Esther and I lived there, and it would. I like to think that my own househols is pretty functional, everybody having their share of chores. Here, I'd make those good-for-nothings learn to do something if it meant their existence. But one can only wish. They'd probably laugh at my face. 

Anyway, my mind has been racing. Here's the current plan:

I start in CEUTEC in Ceiba for six months,

then I transfer to UNITEC in Tegus for the rest of the major,

hopefully, I win a scholarship in July next year (still in UNITEC),

another hopefully, I get to do my practice abroad, with pay,

and after I graduate, I hope I can win a scholarship abroad for my Masters.

That's the plan. I'll be working out, swimming, learning another language, reading, maybe even writing, and obviusly learning to do what I hope will be what I'll love to do. I'm so excited for this major. Energy engineering. The professor that spoke with me when I visited UNITEC made me fall in love with it once again. I'm so excited.

What's happened with the vips is what I thought I'd be doing to the vips. Nicolle exited the group. I've chatted with her, and a couple of the vips asked her why she left, but she didn't say. Her life's harder than I thought. Her dad with another woman, who had another family, another daughter. She probably feels replaced. She told me she'd start at CEUTEC in September. 

Fernando is in Spain. We were with him, digitally, through most of the journey. He's over there in the "old country", as Mrs. Ilze says. With his mom, and her family. 

His story is really touching. I pondered the idea of writing it down. Maybe I will. 

The rest, I don't know what they'll do. 

I'm different, aren't I? I texted Nicolle.

Yeah, she replied, but only because no one really likes studyng, and you do.

I just want independence already.

Good things take time.

I know that. It's just that I hate waiting.