New Plans

I mostly plan. I almost never do. And when I do, I screw up.

Is it that I don't plan well? Or, I simply have bad luck?

My new plan is less ambitious I believe, but I'm afraid. I've lost money, real money, in these plans. And I'm tired of disappointing myself. Who cares about my family, right? Although their support would be nice. 

I'll take it one day at a time. Yet, I love that time feels like it flies. The year is almost over!

In exactly a week, I'll be a year older. Perhaps even wiser. 

So, this is what I want: to buy a good laptop. I'll be checking out offers for this Black Friday. 

Then, maybe I'll get a new job.

Let me take a step back.

This is what I want:

• budget plan monthly
• blog weekly
• read books daily
• watch movies sporadically
• get a new job with normal hour and regular holidays
• write a book
• go on a solo trip to Italy
• go on a trip to El Salvador and Guatemala

Should I even get a Master's? I like being a student, but it costs so much. And now I know that it really doesn't matter what you study because you can get a job and earn money regardless.

But I want to get away. And it sounds like a good excuse.

Canada was magical thinking. I'd freeze my ass off in Toronto.

Carolina is wishful thinking. I'd feel out of place in Winston-Salem.

Maybe Costa Rica is right. 

I've already lost thousands from savings.

I shouldn't be so hard on myself, though, right? That's what youth is for, no? Making mistakes and learning from them. Now that I haven't a responsibility.